Bye Bye not Forever

People come and go.

Quite a famous phrase, eh

Friends...

• If you are one friendly person, by the age 26, you would have a huge list of friends.
• If you are more reserved, you'd prefer having less friends, only to those you're comfortable with.
• If you are nice and good to your friends, they'll always remember you and make a point to keep in touch with you.
• If you are evil and cruel, they'll remember you for all the wrong reasons.

How did I make friends? I did not jump schools, attended the same school from Standard 1 to Form 5 (11 years dat is). I remember I used to be lil reserved in primary days... coz most my classmates speak english (though manglish... but it was far better than mine - pronouncing Sunday as soon-die), so I was a lil shy to approach other kids. But after years picking up manglish and learning Not to make language a barrier, I opened up... and started to have more and more friends. And also, there's a chatter-box code in my DNA therefore I can't stop from "attacking" people I have seen for a decade in the same school.

Then, there's matriculation, Uni and social activities...

To strangers or people I just got to know... I am a bit slow though. At times, it takes some time before I really warm up to people.

But I am approachable and do approach people when supposed to. So i guess i'm friendly... but not tooo friendly... just moderate :P :P~

Am I a friend who comes and go? in people's memory... or am I a friend who stays put in their memory forever or long enough?

People do say I keep in touch with a lot people. I get nicknamed as the Hub, Router and Network-Line (computerized even for a nick name :P~) Yes, I do keep in touch. However, it takes 2 to tango. At times, I lost contact when someone just went MIA, or maybe I went MIA as well?

Another way of keeping in touch, is by asking. For instance, you can ask Miss X who's actively in touch with Miss W about her. You can also ask Miss X, about Miss Q, who is actively in touch with Miss W... Sending regards / kirim salam is also a good way of staying in touch. SMS and calls are even better... or maybe a poke in facebook ;-)

There's lots of ways to keep in touch.

But... we too... need to be more "visible" and "alive" to be remembered. It's not fair to expect people to remember us when all we do is sit back and hope other people make the first initiative to call. Like mentioned... it takes 2 to tango ;-)

Wehhhhh.....

all i wanted to do was post some farewell gathering photos... and I end up crapping! duh.. so me!

OK......

THere have been some series of farewell... and series of farewell makan - makan. From Mas, to Ruby to Bullert. Here's a photo from Bullert's farewell. Bullert's heading to Putrajaya for his new job... hihihihi... Bullert kena dok KL....takleh lak akak nak monitor Bullert lagi lepas ni. He's the only junior in CS I still get to bully... but not anymore dah... sob sob....

Parlimail members are decreasing???? huhuhuuhuh..... I hope 2009 activities will still be as havoc as last year's. huhuhu....

Yesterday, Merrina's farewell gathering.

Hosted by Marlina. Here's Merri posing with the gifts we got her.

She's leaving for Australia to pursue her Masters Degree. Best wishes and good luck kay. About the "please come to sydney while I'm there"... I'm kinda stuck with "student-ing" myself down here... and $ $ $ :-(

Talking about farewell and friends and keeping in touch........


Do take note of the craps above and Keep In Touch kay......
all of u... Me friends... in penang, kl, samarahan, ostrolia, amarika dan sewaktu dengannya.
*updated* yeahh... italia juga semestinya ;-)

~ toodles

Klik and Kebooooffff

Mari kita lakukan sedikit magis!

Gambar pertama:

Zam zam ala kazammmm..... keboooofffff !!!!!!!!!!

Adakah Jessie telah dibawakan khas dari Kalifonia menggunakan lampu ajaib?

how we wish eh?

Zaman sekarang lampu ajaib susah lagi untuk didapati di pasaran. Tidak mengapa, kita kan sudah ada stok tak berkesudahan magis - magis berbentuk digital. Magis kali ini dinamakan Adobe Photoshop. Versi ke berapa itu tidak menjadi isu utama.

Marilah kita sama-sama mencuba magis ini.

Pertama sekali... jika ada gambar yang ingin dimagiskan dengan kemunculan orang baru... harus mencari ruangan terbaik dan juga gambar ter-sesuai untuk dimasukkan. Sebagai contoh, gambar di atas tadi, dan juga gambar di bawah ini. Di mana kita boleh mengduplikasi Jessie dari sudut yang sama.

Oh ya... jangan lupa buka Adobe photoshop nyer dulu. Ok... marilah kita memulakan operasi pengklonan XYXX#$2331...

1. Buka Fail gambar yang nak di-sunting... gagaga... edit=sunting kan?
2. Buka Fail gambar yang mempunyai gambar yang ingin di"extract" @ di-ciluk.
3. Pergi kepada ToolBar.. dan cari Ikon (Clone Stamp Tool) ini:
   (dibulat merah)
4. Di atas pula akan keluar seperti ini, sejurus memilih ikon itu
   
   (Brush: 33) 33 itu adalah saiz berus untuk melakukan pemberusan. Parameter ini boleh diubah mengikut kesesuai imej. :D
   (Mode: Normal) Kalau opsyen lain, susah sikit mahu memberus
   (Opacity: 90-100%) Opacity akan memberi nilai ketelusan. Lebih rendah opacity, menjadi lebih telus @ "transparent". Jadi untuk pengklonan yang baik, pilihla opacity yang tinggi atau maksima.
5. Berbalik pada file gambar kita. Tekan pada papan kekunci Alt dan Klik pada titik fokus imej yang ingin diklonkan. Akan keluar tanda seperti dibawah dan sebaik kita melepaskan klik, ia akan menentukan titik tengah itu sebagai titik permulaan pengklonan.
   
6. Kita boleh mulakan pengklonan. Pergi kepada gambar yang ingin kita sunting, dan mula memberus pada kawasan yang ingin kita bawakan imej klon kita. Semasa kita memberus, seperti contoh di bawah, suatu penanda + akan bergerak secara selari dengan arah berus kita. Ia akan menunjukkan titik - titik (pixels) yang sama sedang diberus.
   
7. Memberus dengan teliti akan memberikan hasil yang lebih baik. sebaiknya gunakan saiz berus yang lebih kecil ;-) Yaaa.. dengan itu.... 7 langkah anda berjaya membawa sesorang ke dalam gambar anda dengan mudah sekali.

SELAMAT MECUBA!

p/s: jangan aplikasikannya untuk ke arah tujuan negatif yaa. Contoh aplikasi yang tidak membawa kesan negatif adalah gambar kumpulan foto. Pada ketika tiada jurukamera tambahan dan ketiadaan tripod yang baik. Kita boleh mengambil dua gambar sama dengan orang berbeza menjadi juru kamera. Boleh lakukan pengklonan kemudian. Contoh:

Can u tell who's been cloned? I was the first photographer and the second photographer took this photo. Later, I cloned her. I am so glad I need not use chemical substance / formula to perform Cloning :P~ gegeggee

Na Oru Tadava Sonna.....

I just read a friend's blog. Quite a number of posts where she wrote about movies, Tamil mainly. Good reference point for me, coz I follow Tamil movies... ahaks...

I watch Tamil movies since I can't remember when. Practically, I grew up watching em. Hindi too but Tamil in majority. I know some people label anak mami penang to be very fanatic over Hindi movies... hehe... I can safely say I'm not one of them coz I'm kinda like more hardcore sikit... I watch Tamil movies instead. Yeahhhh...

There was this one time, bollywood feva hit the country, where almost everyone can sing /know one of shah rukh khan's hits... Yaa.. he's cute and all, and I enjoy his movies and all... I do enjoy some Hindi movies like Bobby, Kuch Kuch Hota Hai and any movies with Juhi Chawla in it. But still... can't beat my preferences over tamil movies. Why Tamil movies?

• Most of the stories are more believable and related to real society / human struggle/life etc
• Some interesting / good stories in hindi movies these days are actually remake from Tamil movies, so I might as well watch it in a version I understand better :-)
• Not all leading actors/actresses look like they belong to the calendar pose.
  
  

The fact is, there's a lot of dubbing and remakes of movies in India, (Tamil to Hindi, vice versa, Hindi to Telegu etc) to better suit the audiences' language and accent. I think it applies the same here too... although some viewers do not understand both Tamil and Hindi, given the same story line, they choose the version they are used to/ prefer. Pick your preferences... I'll stick with mine... hehe...

Oh yaa... another fact... most of my friends know who Superstar Rajinikanth is, although they never follow Tamil movies.... Zassss.... dushhhh dusssh... or famously known as Padayappa.

Like Amitabh Batchan in Hindi.... Rajinikanth in Tamil, both of them are unreplacable. You can never remake their movies and try to make another actor portray their roles... sure fail! They can only dub their movies to another language but never can they remake it, what more to maintain the same aura in it.

Huhu... ada sekali tu... In bilik TV desa Aman (first year masa tu). I tengah lepak ngan Shasha and the TV was on, an entertainment series by Malaysian Indian performing groups. Shasha excited, although she never watched Tamil movies/ videoclips. Not wanting to distract other viewers there, whispering to me, asking me what this and that meant. "Ohh.. maksud dia... mcm Rancangan Hiburan" I answered when she asked the meaning of the show. Then, ada lagu keluar dan video klip kuar... dia tanya dgn konfidennya... "Eh, Letchumy tu apa maksud dia" Terus la aku gelak terbahak-bahak dgn kuatnya... weiiii... letchumy tu nama orang laaa! Other viewers looked at us speculatively... alamak... to avoid controversy, we quickly left the room, with Shasha learning something new dat day.

My effort to influence people to watch Tamil movies/shows never ended there. With help from Alisa, fellow Tamil movies fan... we continue to make more viewers who do not understand Tamil, watch the movies / or just listen to the songs. Antara success stories:

1. The whole lab used to listen to Tamil songs Alisa and I would play in the wee hours, when we used to stay back in the lab for final year project
2. Make close friends around us watch at least one Tamil movie. The most popular one: Sivaji the Boss, followed by Ghajini. Paling berjaya: ada yang menonton berkali-kali tanpa disuruh.
3. Transfer Tamil Mp3 songs... Paling berjaya: Zal, has become a fanatic fan of tamil songs
4. Most of my friends know how to respond/echo to my "Tanggeci Vicca Maram" song... Paling Berjaya: back in secondary, making this song our school debate team's theme song.
5. Turning on THR Raaga in my car (*actually dah default setting). Paling Berjaya: Aca dancing to the beat, with me in the car listening to THR Raaga... well done, Aca! Haha!

To end my post today,

famous quote from Rajinikanth...

Na Oru Tadava Sonna... Nuru Tadava Sonna Maari.
Translation: When I say it once, it's like I have said it hundred of times.
Penjelasan: I will only say it once... if it's equivalent to 100 times, it means I am very firm about it, so you better do as I say/ ask... kalau tak...

and this...

Cuba cek panggung wayang yaar ;-)

Back on Board...

I craved for holiday... short and simple one will do!


Yap... Went to KeyEll... although the previous entry sounded a lil negative, well that was just the journey and all, but the intipati nyer very positive. Attended Elly's wedding, and this time, not as the photographer... haha.. (after 6 consecutive weeks of photoshoots). I travelled with Sony, yaa.. kesian Sony... lama owner dia tak menggunakannya. Sue was my hostess this time... tenkiu beb, Lepak and catch-up with Sue and Marha. Nite, the reception - pktr'99 mini reunion at Elly's wedding. Congrats Elly! was great meeting u n the rest.


After the wedding, next day, we sent Ruby off to Sarawak (posting). Very random, as I only planned this on the way to KL. Ruby... hope she won't get homesick... I gave her Minyak Cap Kapak as the parting gift... so dat she can 'sniff' me anytime she misses me... hahhaha..


Kat airport, bumped into Aan and her newly wed hubby (sending off Aan's cuzzy). Wat a surprise! I dint get to attend her wedding (short notice:P). After melepak with Mas and her colleague, went back to KL to melepak dengan Aan and her Hubby, Ilyas. Banyak la catching up... been sometime since I last really potpet with this gurl. Dah ler dua2 kaki potpet... hihih.. sampai ke malam jadinyer catch-up session kitorg :P


Took the whole week off... but came down to the lab a few times for transit purposes :P

Tiba-tiba, I got an offer for another holiday... actually, as a replacement. Kak Ilah and I joined the CS family day... Wednesday we were informed, gave confirmation and Friday, off we went!



To Lumut - Damai Laut.




Very Damai, don't u think?






Or... maybe this malaysian-style wrapped mummy will make you think twice?
Hehee... pixxie from the Sukaneka.

The masa beriadah atau berehat-rehat was fully utilised by melepak-lepak by the beach... Refreshing :-) And made friends with the ants.

Ant #1: The long shadow showing the extension of its sexy legs... fuyyyoh!

Ant #2: Had to usher tis fella to cross this so called bridge :P, coz I want the sea-background
but Ant#2 has its own idea of posing.... hiding from the ray of sunlite...




they are super slim ok... kalah we-olls. In this photoshooting process... I think I broke one of their friends' leg... huhu... didn't mean to... sowie...



Oh yaa.. kayak FREE.. so Kak Ilah and I went for Kayak... and in middle of the sea... watched the sunset... no camera! sayang sekali! but view was marbeles! (*air pasang - agak berombak)

The next morning, we saw this beaver swimming from rock to rock... they swim in open sea too eh? but maybe still morning and it was low tide...

This pixxie not very clear... coz dah quite far... dah zoom 10x... huhu... swim so fast.. cannot keep up lerr...




OK! Where did I get my sunburn from? ---> Kayaking in the middle of the day...

This time around, I didnt apply sunblock, and it was near noon... aahhaha.. of cos la Burn! its wokkay... cherishing the "baked" version of my Sweet Chocolate Skin.... hohoho...


 ok... bebalik pada my short Yoliday...

oh ya.. mana gambr travelmate saya, Kak Ilah....
tadaaa... here u go...

we came back Sunday... looking tanned and more exotic than ever.. (cewahh... konon la)...


did not end there... went straight to Bt.Feringgi where I spend the rest of my day @ holiday with my family. Sis and nephew came down from KeyEll...




And... TODAY


back on board... hhehehhehee...

Pro-Penang?

Has been 1 year plus since I last travelled to KL to meet friends. Last year's 2 trips were strictly work and others with family.

I used to have this yearly of six-monthly visits to KL last time, after my matriculations. Having some close friends studying in universities in KL area... I'd love to make my self-adventure down to kl, venture all the posssible LRTs or Komuters to meet as much friends as I could. At the same time, it was a treat for me-self for jalan-jalan after struggling with exams or run away from loads of assignments.

After we graduated, some were still studying, some still looking for jobs. Even some friends who studied in Penang, came down to KL to look for jobs etc. Back then, the trips were very much anticipated as well. Jumping from one friend's house to another was fun. Sharing their career building moments were memorable.

At times, some reunions happen only when I came down from Penang. Although quite a number of them work in KL, they don't usually get the luxury of setting a right time to meet. So, when I did go down to visit, they knew they had to arrange the luxury somehow. Ye lah.. I dah datang jauh- jauh.

Then...

after a few years.... I start to be very attached with my "Penang-life" - work, studies and photography... and I realise many of my friends over there are getting busier with life as well. Some already moving to another phase (marriage)... i'm saying it as another phase coz it's a phase I'm not in, yet :P~ haha... So, my so called self-adventures down to KL has lessened. I'd love to do more real adventure thingy now... like hiking and camping yaa... (*ok, parlimail?)

Hahaa.. and yaaa.. the never-ending debates between KL-Lovers and Penang-Lovers. Okie, definitely I'm on Penang-Lovers side... haahhaa... yoshh!

There were a few KL-Penang comparisons I had. For Career... and for Studies. No matter how much my KL-lovers friends tried to convince me I should try "surviving" KL, I just couldn't bring myself to "migrate" over there. To say I am not adventurous or dare not take challenge... is up to people to make judgements. Hehe, I have my own definitions for this... and have my own reasons for the choices I make :-)

would/might say:

KL-freaks

1. We have everything here, and they are easily accessible.
2. Entertainment and Food is plenty
3. People are more colorful, different styles, different ways of representing themselves.
4. Convenient - highways help you to move easily... but Toll... err...
5. LRT and public transportation = tip-top
6. Shopping heaven
7. To test your durability and sense of survival in the city-jungle. Face the real world.

Penang-freaks would/might say:

1. We don't have as much as KL, but we have enough
2. U still enjoy city-life but it's not as hectic as KL. Entertainment oso got. For food.. fancy restaurants oso got.. hawkers stalls oso got... sedap some more...
3. People are lil bit more friendly than those in KL
4. Ok... penang bridge always jam, but at least not toll everywhere we go
5. Try taking Komuter-LRT on working hours... can die. Try driving in Penang for at least 3 months, you will become best drivers in Malaysia ;-)
6. We also have many shopping outlets, although KL has wider options, at least the parking tickets won't kill us after shopping... waggagagagaaa....
7. anywhere oso can learn the survival skills... and anywhere oso real world maa ;-P

They sure don't apply to everyone, people have different reasons to settle down in different places. Haha, but when ever I tangled in KL vs Penang debate... I can be sooo one-sided and biased... hikhikhik.....wooopsie...

I do get remarks like "you are sooo penang" or "dat's so penangite". Do we have some kind of trademark, hmmm... I wonder. I donno what that is, but one thing i realise... most penangites a bit cincai one... kihkihkih... and we do say/hear the word cincai a lot.

Ok... actually

I just came back from a short trip in KL... (meeting friends). After not taking the bus for quite some time... this is what i discovered or re-discovered:

1. Some people at the bus platform (i.e. bus drivers) making side incomes by trafficking goods. I don't think I would complain if they don't end up making the passengers wait for 45 minutes at the platform while they possibly make a trip to pick up some goods (informing us pergi isi minyak but had to wait macam they went to gali minyak definitely made us make speculations) + there were small pick-up trucks collecting goods from the bus + at the platform where some goods (fresh food) were left unattended earlier.
2. Ok... now they stop in weird places other than Pudu... grrr.. this is personal bash.. cos i missed the LRT.
3. The baby cockroaches always make final appearances. it kills me everytime these roaches make their "Boo" at the end of the bus ride, knowing that u have slept with bebeh-roaches, wow... but takpa laa.. kalau tau awal-awal, lagi tak leh duduk.
4. The ticket from Penang to KL is rm35? warkhhhhhhh.... mahal nyer!
5. I complain a lot (though not out loud...) :P~

Revisiting

I used to blog here from 2005 to mid 2006... then I closed my blog (for some unidentified reason), deleting the posts, but kept em in my PC. I didnt know how to delete the blog back then, so I just left it until I realised that my account is still available. 

I blogged back, using friendster's blog. Haha kinda normal syndrome among bloggers eh... change2 blog laa... apa laa.. hhahaha...


I switched back to blogspot as it's easier to link friends etc.. and I dragged along my previous posts from friendster blog here. So what happens to my previous posts from this blog before I decided to "close"? Hehehe.. just for my keep, I guess...

I happen to go thru these files... and reading it back, makes me smile... coz this is one of the posts I'd read and read and read back... Not because I sooo siok sendiri (mungkin jugak, haha)... but because it brings back good memories... good feelings :-) I just want to repost here, so dat I can read back any time I want... (without having to search for the files in my digital treasure box)... for old time sake...

Some posts are re-posted here :P

Caca-Merba

Happy New Year....

And Hello New Blog!

As you can see... I have extracted the posts from the previous blog, with the comments copied and pasted back here... hahaha.. very beria.

Ok... I am in the mood to post some pixxies now...

Pengantin sungguh cun sekali berposing. Mari kita lihat aksi di sebalik tabir pula.

Quote daripada Zue "what happen when your friend get married...and hire your friend as the photographer?chances are........you can tag along and help out...sayyyy...... pegang payung bila hujan? dan juga menjadi model sambilan demi memeriahkan gambar... yeeee haaaa.... "

Yaaa.... betul.... ini lah hasil model sambilan in action:
Nampak tak model-model sambilan kita? Sangat kiut, ok.... hikhikhik....

Student I am

Finally….

I have registered yesterday… therefore, I am officially a student once again. Actually, can’t tell the difference since I am still at the same place and doing research in the same area :P~

However… the process to finally declare myself a student again has been somewhat tiring and challenging.

I did not really plan to pursue PhD while I was doing my masters. I knew I have passion for teaching, and after doing some tutoring jobs, I just knew it has to be the path I’d follow.

A school teacher? I almost applied for education course but chose not to, just to keep my options wider. I looked for other courses that can allow me to jump job scopes anytime if I changed my mind about teaching. And…another thing… kids n teenagers nowadays scare me, seriously. They are more advanced and I dunno… aggresive, maybe? I don’t think I can handle them :P~ And I don’t want to end up being a lousy teacher either… so I’ll leave the job to people who are best at it :-) and I really admire those who put 80-100% commitment to their teaching career.

This passion has somehow influenced me to further my studies (*in a field that I chose abruptly but found love in)…

and to my friends who have heard rumours that I’ll be going overseas to do my PhD… (and keep asking me when I’m leaving Malaysia)…

Wow… I think I’ll clarify.

I was at the final process… I already have the offer letters from the university with me. I even got a student ID and web account from the department there with two good supervisors who were interested with my research proposal. What stood between me and all these - a final approval locally (*funding) and visa.

Keboof…. all disappeared like a dream! There were some unresolved issues. I will not elaborate further… But there and then, everything changed. I lost it, my enthusiasm and hope… for some time. The appeal process really ate my motivation, as everything end up with rejections. I was very close to forget about everything and just move on. Industry maybe! But, I hold on… I dunno why. My heart is telling me to stay.

Change of plans. I had to change my mindset as well. Telling myself over and over again, Not to let rejections eat me up. If this is important for me, I have to be strong and stand for it. I also believe in rezeki and destiny. If it’s meant to be, it’ll be. If it’s not, maybe we can still try our best to try to make it happen. But at times, in certain situations, letting go is also the best thing we can do, letting go of something, but still look for other options for the same cause ;-)

Forget about UK and focus on USM. If I were to apply to other local Uni, maybe there will be some resistance in me… but usm, this place will heal and boost my spirits.

Ok…

I’ve just made my way on-board the voyage. I know there’s gonna be rain and shine, thunderstorms and winds, = obstacles, challenges along the way… It might not be a smooth sailing, but I hope it’ll be an interesting journey, a learning curve and get to the destination safely… hehhehee….

Wish me luck ;-)

tenkiu u ollsss… for the never ending supports and words of encouragement :*

Klik Klik * I gotcha!

i LOVE photos… digital or printed… especially if a photo has a story to tell.

Since I was small kid, I loved to look at photos very much. Growing up, I’d still be looking at photos of yesteryears and remembering the times they were taken… I dunno, maybe this has helped me in keeping the memories fresh in my head.

In my teenage years, I remember I was always nagged at, by my elder sister, if the photos I took did not have nice angles. Especially when she was in Form 5, I had to take a lot of her self portrait (she wanted to put on friends’ autographs). Her complaints had me on guard everytime I took pictures of people. Center! Balanced! Focused!

I also started to develop love for photos from hi-definition cameras. At that time, manual SLR. Alisa used a SLR since she was 13. Looking at her developed photos, wow… admiration. I thought “hmmm.. bila lah aku leh amik gambaq cun macam ni aaa”. Then, I came across bunch of photos Jessie took, I was mesmerised, which led to, me chasing her for editorial board… hihiihih… I really admire their photography.

For my sis’ matriculation’s graduation, my dad borrowed his collegue’s SLR since our camera was out of order. I was salivating over it, and immediately took control. Hihihi.. konfiden je lebih… But, not all the pictures turned out ok. Malu jek.. hahahaa…

Jump a few years… while I was doing degree, in midst of completing programming assignments and chasing project dues, I found myslef glued to the computer, creating super-imposed photos. Yaa.. talk about spending too much time on computers! :P I nearly got in trouble because of that. After that, I became more sensitive on editing people, because some people may get hurt if we simply brush off or brush in certain things. On the other hand, that gave me a head-start for photo editing.

Then, digital cameras came in the market, but not many owned it yet. I remember Dindi was among the first one having this gadget so we had some digital photos of degree year… thanks to her camera and also bukh’s desa harapan’s camera :P~ Remembering it now… ahaha.. even most of my convocation photos were taken using film-roll camera… hihihi..

After working for about one year… motivated by Alisa’s , I bought a semi-SLR (Sony-H1).

My very own camera… I was sooo excited. Tak henti-henti klik sana klik sini… Never have I planned to do wedding photos. At first, I was only a tag-along photographer, usually providing company to Alisa, who started doing wedding shots using her manual SLR and semi-SLR.

A few months later, Kak Haira gave me her trust to cover her wedding as the official photographer. With my semi-SLR, I took the challenge. From the feedbacks I’ve got, I started to take more challenges, covering weddings even from people who are not in my networks.
At first, I felt stiff, at times a bit shy. I was more gabra than the groom for nikah ceremony… worried if I might missed the most important shot, the akad itself. After some time, I gained more and more confidence. Although, I tend to have gabra-ness every now and then… i’d be recovering fast.

Editing is more tiring than shooting. It involves time and effort… and that can also mean taking away some of the precious times allocated for other things. Perfecting the skills is a must… therefore, I am still learning… As for photography, my Lighting still needs a lot of practise n learning.

Maintanence is also high. Switching to DSLR-Nikon D60 which I currently shoot with, took months of saving. Since I don’t charge as much as professional photographers, I do not earn that much. So maintanence and upgrading has to take months of saving. Yaa.. like many people say, Photography is an expensive hobby… yeahhh.. IT IS! I can buy a big new fridge for my family at the price of a new lense. Hard labour u see… heheheheehe…

But… why I am taking all these trouble… I should say challenge… Trouble sounds so negative lak.

It’s all in the name of Love and Passion :D:D


I quote my sis “Tu la pakwe dia sejati, bawak ke hulu hilir” refering to my camera… hohohoh..oh ya pakwe lama, Sony masih dihatiku… tak sampai hati nak jual balik.

am i a computer geek

the answer to the title of this post = No, am not :D

Once upon a time, the word computer and IT sounded very alien to many human. I grew up in that era. When I was in primary school, I did not escape from the most typical question asked – What you want to be when you grow up @ Apakah cita-cita kamu? Most of us answered Teacher, Doctor or Lawyer.

When we started to reach 10-11, the options widened, simply because we were exposed to more choices. One of us wanted to become a fashion designer (now an engineer… but maybe soon going to chase her life-longed ambition). There was this one time, one of my classmates said “I want to become a lecturer” and the whole class went “wooooo”. Everybody looked very kagum with that ambition. Three quarter of the class had no idea what lecturer was, including me, then she had to explain to all curious faces that lecturer is like a teacher but you teach in a university, and everybody was like “woooooo” again. University!!! That word sounded soooo big and dreamy last time. I just stick with Doctor as my answer.

Then somewhere around 12, the government started to promote the importance of science in education. The opening of Science Exhibition centers had really made an impact on kids and young teenagers back then. Suddenly, everybody wants to become an engineer or a scientist (but too young to know that it is too generic to say scientist without mentioning your specialization :P).

I joined the Science Club in Form 1 and 2, and yes, most of the members were science lovers and slightly geek-ish. I still remember joining the educational trip to Usm…  :P My second visit here after first one, accompanying my dad playing football when I was 5. My two close buddies and I roamed around the campus and fell in love with the museum, which has a special science area. Never had it occurred to me that I would end up in this place for a very long time! Hahaha

Hmm… still, I did not know what I wanted to be when I grow up. I would just say doctor (HAHA.. ingat senang-senang ke jadi doctor) masih ignorant lagi time tu. I even dreamt of becoming a heart specialist because the subject Sistem Jantung caught my attention more than anything else in Sains.

All the fantasies ended… when I was in Form 4. Being in a pure science class, during Biology class, we had to conduct some experiments involving B.L.O.O.D. We were doing experiment on blood cells… I thought I was so macho; I volunteered one of my fingers to be the korban. Using traditional utensil, my friends poked my finger… I saw patches of blood… errrr blooood… and suddenly, I felt cloudiness in my head. My head was turning around and I was losing balance, so I quickly caught my stool and sat on it with my head down. I thought it was due to the blood lose (DRAMA… punyalah sikit darah yg kuar)…

The following year, I volunteered to poke people’s finger rather than having mine poked. And kesiannlaaa my friend tu, I keep poking but can’t really poke through coz every time I applied pressure to the skin, I hesitated. She was already jerking her fingers because my uncertainty was actually causing pain to her skin tissues… haha… so someone else took it from me and poked it. I saw blood… deep red bloooood… Again, I had the same experience…. I sat down reaching for fresh air coz I did not want to end up fainting. Malu laaa :P tak macho maaa. Then, I knew, I had to kiss goodbye for anything medical… nurse, doctor, M.A… I would disqualify for anything related to it.

In the meantime, my interest in chemistry subject was degrading. Thinking of how less I actually paid attention to this subject…scary man… I didn’t even revise the subject properly during SPM. I hate it that much I can say. Thank god I survived spm. When I went into matriculations, I still proceeded with pure science without putting much thought into it. I loved all the subjects except for chemistry. Bio, I loved Bio… but again, during an experiment – dissect a white mouse.

I was so proud as Rinaz and I were the first team to complete the dissection and able to separate all the organs nicely… that was before the lecturer asked us to open up the skull. I scratched the skull using the blade. I scratched again, again…. And suddenly everything went black… I felt tight and suffocated. I just walked out from the lab to get some fresh air, and dropped some baby tears. I dunno where it came from, I just felt so weak and useless.

The time to decide our futures

The forms were distributed (belum guna online forms). Everyone in matriculation was busy with the forms. All conversations were about choices, options and future. I saw the list of courses and universities. What course??? Which Uni??? “Not in the Northen area, definitely…never… I am not going to be stuck in Penang/North”. NEVER SAY NEVER eh?? :P

All the pure and applied sciences have either mild or extensive chemistry subjects in it. I wanted to apply to a course that has no chemistry in it. I listed down some of the courses. The list, (we were given only 5 choices back then) I end up with most of it being related to computer /IT subjects.

The reasons I had… First, because it still has the word science/technology in it; and I have always loved science. Second, it has no chemistry subject and anything related to chemistry. Third, I thought computer science means, a lot of technicality and practical works and less reading. HAHAHHAAHAHAHHAHAHHAAH……. I WAS SOOOO WRONGGGG about the third one!

I played a lot in my matriculations so I did not have excellent grades so I knew I would be rejected if I applied for hard-core courses, plus all the hard-core courses I was interested in, was related to chemistry… hahahaa.. so I’d better play safe with choices I knew I would have higher chances of getting, rather than being a lelong candidate.

My first choice was some hardcore engineering course. Second choice, I wanted to fill in UM-computer science, but people told me that This Uni has the best computer science course. As much as I wanted to explore other places than Northern Msia, however, listening to many advices; I put one of it as my 2nd choice. I thought well, maybe I won’t get the placement and they would forward me to my third choice. I was betting on it.

When I made my call to the KPM operator, and the machine spelled the course I’ve got, I was speechless. “bla bla bla… bla bla” What??? Still in North???? Very disappointed… but not for long… because I started to develop special feelings for this university. Now, I am close to being obsessed to it… mwahahhaaa….

So here I am, still doing Computer Science. Everyone else has graduated and working happily in either computer-related field or opted for other job scopes. I graduated too… but somehow I am still here… extending my stay and studies in this field. So much for a choice I made bluntly right?

Life is unpredictable ;-)